Posts in Musings
Praying Depression Away Doesn’t Always Work

The first time I realized my mental state of mind was anything but “normal,” I was in eighth grade. Growing up, I battled with a nagging voice inside my head that insisted I was fat, not good enough, unlikable compared to others, and being bullied was my fault. I didn’t understand why I felt sad and hopeless all the time or knew how to talk about what I was feeling. So, I wrote down my deepest and most vulnerable thoughts in a journal.

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I’ve Given All My Love Away, Now I Need It Back

The first time I experienced losing someone I was eight-years-old. My spiritual Godmother, who attended the church I grew up in and prayed for me as if I were one of her own, passed away of complications from having diabetes. When I found out that she had passed, I didn’t understand the concept of death. How could someone close to me be here one day and “gone” the next? I was confused and heartbroken that I’d never get to see her again without a true understanding as to why.  

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Just Because I’m Alone, Doesn’t Mean I’m Lonely

Every year around Valentine’s Day I go through mood swings. If I’m being honest, I’ve never enjoyed the day. As soon as I see red plush teddy bears, heart-shaped boxes with chocolate inside, and those nasty ass sweethearts candy, I cringe. The images and lovey dovey movies that are released and played on a loop on television during this time of the year are constant reminders that I’m single. 

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Forgiveness Isn’t Always Easy

Forgiveness is probably one of the hardest things a person has to do in life. It’s not easy to forgive someone who has patently done something wrong to you. Why should they get a pass for hurting and causing you grief? It’s almost as if forgiving them means we’re, in some ways, condoning their actions. But forgiveness isn’t at all about the people who hurt us. It’s about ourselves, our freedom, and our road to healing and recovery. In Vivian Page’s memoir, I Forgive You, she shows just how important forgiveness is.

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